[He flinches at what almost sounds like an accusation. "Cold and weird, coming from you," as if he's just supposed to... accept it. That he can't stand on Ryuji's level, or Haru's, or any of them.
Then his shoulders sag, and he looks back to his hands, shaking his head with a sigh. Isn't that what he's been doing since he entered the Reserve Course, just clinging to people with talent. Following in their wake as if hoping he could make something of himself that way.]
I just...
[He feels vulnerable, but he isn't going to say that. His friend is a criminal, who's gone up against horrible people, who's made a difference in the world in a way Hajime can't do. It's complicated.]
You and Haru.... you guys are the kind of people I wish I could be, [he says finally. Jury is. Way out on Goro, but then, he's not nearly as close to him as he is to Ryuji, or even Haru.] But I'm not like you guys. I don't care that you're criminals, but it's like...
[He gestures, wordlessly, an almost Erika-like gesture as if hoping Ryuji could get his meaning just like that.]
It's finding out someone you thought was just like you is some kind of hero-vigilante, and there's nothing I can do but hang back and watch. You know?
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Then his shoulders sag, and he looks back to his hands, shaking his head with a sigh. Isn't that what he's been doing since he entered the Reserve Course, just clinging to people with talent. Following in their wake as if hoping he could make something of himself that way.]
I just...
[He feels vulnerable, but he isn't going to say that. His friend is a criminal, who's gone up against horrible people, who's made a difference in the world in a way Hajime can't do. It's complicated.]
You and Haru.... you guys are the kind of people I wish I could be, [he says finally. Jury is. Way out on Goro, but then, he's not nearly as close to him as he is to Ryuji, or even Haru.] But I'm not like you guys. I don't care that you're criminals, but it's like...
[He gestures, wordlessly, an almost Erika-like gesture as if hoping Ryuji could get his meaning just like that.]
It's finding out someone you thought was just like you is some kind of hero-vigilante, and there's nothing I can do but hang back and watch. You know?