[Sometimes, rarely these days, he still feels himself the incessant urge to ask things like this, even when he has every reason in the world to know the security that exists in their relationship. They're bound by a shared history, magic that left a mark on their wrists, and the affection they have in their hearts for each other, and that's, logically speaking, more than he could ever need. And yet, sometimes, he still feels that urge to ask for the reaffirmation. Signs of a childhood and an upbringing where that sort of certainty just wasn't there; he's never been great at doing anything but wearing his elbow scars out in the open like that.
Still, it's cool. It's all good. He eyes the launcher, the box, and in his mind's eye, traces a path that will inevitably end up junking this thing right into orbit. At least, hopefully. Who knows? Maybe it'll crash down right on top of the Director as she screams out in an agonizing roar of contempt for burritos. Either way, it's still a win.]
I love this tradition. [It's the best one, clearly. When does he get to hit the launch lunch button?]
[if he knew that's where the question was coming from, he might say he understood — his own insecurities, the way he worries over whether the people who matter to him feel the same way about him, manifest a bit more subtly, though. it's at least part of why he always tried so hard with the coolkid persona. it's the way he's pretty much constantly up in Ryuji's business, even when he's acting cool about it.]
[it's the way he's kind of nervous about handing over this gift, worried that it's going to wind up being a misfire. considering Ryuji just got done spreading a thin layer of sap all over space and presenting it to him like a love song, though, Dave's almost positive the worry's unfounded. but just like the million other ways the two of them are alike, he's had to grow up with that same uncertainty, too. he's better about fishing for reaffirmation than he's ever been, but the urge is still there.]
Yeah, it's a pretty fucking great tradition. Here. [eloquent as ever. Dave produces a small gift from his jacket pocket, and hands it over. it's a skateboard. a skateboard ... with wings?? intricately carved out of wood, impressively detailed so that the wheels even roll, made with a precision that Dave is most definitely not capable of — which means he got someone else to carve out this very goofy idea he had for Ryuji specifically.]
[jury's out on whether it can actually fly, but it's certainly aerodynamic enough.]
[For a few, brief moments, he just stands there looking at it, which might not play out how Dave is expecting this to go down, really, probably provides the worst sort of anxiety woes that he didn't like what he was giving to Ryuji, but give him a moment to ever so freaking gently receive the gift. He holds it in his hand, terrified that he might do something to break it after getting it, all of three seconds into actually having it to begin with. He looks back over at Dave, and then at the flying skateboard again.
Considering he only ones of one person in this entire moon base that works wood nearly as well as this, and she had offered to make a memorial for their lost friends, Ryuji guesses that hot mom-san was in on this, and with a little push to test the wheels, it moves forward. Goddamn. This is the coolest thing he's ever gotten in his entire life.]
Whoa. This is goddamn awesome. [Hey, look at this, did you know that this thing right here is really amazing? It needs to fly.
Wait, it strikes him. Anniversary? Anniversary. Oh shit.]
Thank you. Shit, I didn't. Uhhh. Happy anniversary! [Can he pull off this deception check with a -10 modifier? Probably not, but losing track of time was something he was good for. By all accounts, he knows he's 18 but has no idea when his birthday passed. At least... Dave's got a handle of.
Of course he has a handle of time? That was, likely, the dumbest thought he's had in a good long while.]
I didn't really have anything prepped to give you in return or anything. Can "I" be your present? [It's the gift that keeps on giving! He smiles sheepishly. Everything suddenly makes sense.]
[Dave kind of figured out upthread that Ryuji didn't know what day it was, if it makes him feel any better. and he's not miffed or anything — is six months kind of too early to be going all out on anniversary gifts like this? he doesn't know. the thought to do it crossed his mind once, and in a split second he made the decision to follow through.]
[he exhales a breath he didn't realize he was holding once Ryuji voices his approval. the fact that he likes it. and there's an equal measure of time where Dave feels sort of silly, too, getting so anxious over whether he'd like an admittedly silly, yet symbolic, sort of gift like a skateboard with wings. knowing Ryuji, he'd probably be thrilled with half a block of instant ramen and a few shakes of flavoring left in the packet as an anniversary gift — even if Dave thinks he deserves that, and far beyond that.]
At the obvious risk of outsapping you and your moon comment earlier, you kinda already are? [oh boy. they could drown a record-breaking pancake shortstack with all this sap they've been dishing out today. Dave doesn't really care.]
But yeah, that sounds good. Great, even. I mean — I'm not sayin' that as a joke or anything, that's really probably the best thing you could give me right now.
[like how he'd immediately hopped into a glass ball to help Dave when he'd asked, reading between the lines to see that he was asking for help in the first place. like how he'd barged in on Dave when he was sick, and insisted on taking care of him. like how he'd grabbed Dave's hand when he was in the middle of a long and anxious ramble over admitting he liked him, settling him down immediately, six months ago.]
[Six months is a rather big milestone, though, and maybe a part of Ryuji not recognizing the amount of time they had spent together was in partly due to the fact that it went by so incredibly quick. And in that span of time, there were so many conversations, so many stupid things, great things, sad things, too. He's sappy enough to say love song lyrics out loud to him, and he's definitely sappy enough to make note that every single day of these past months have been made infinitely better because Dave was by his side.
And he'd be really, really freaking stoked for a package of ramen as an anniversary gift. Hard pressed, too, whether or not he'd actually eat it and just leave it as a longstanding thing that he owns. Put it on a mantel, make a mantelpiece out of it and just lovingly stare at it from time to time.]
Nah, outsapping me isn't even possible, dude. [He tilts his head, not intently trying to make a competition out of anything, but inadvertently doing so anyway.] But you've made me this way, too? Like, I wanna just tell you everything all the damn time, and I wasn't really in tune with my feelings before I met you, but. Yeah. You've... you've really opened me up to a lot of things, and if we're bein' real here, which we are, I don't wanna ever go back to not understanding what those feelings are. Like love, and shit.
[He's rambling again, and it's not really on point of what's going on, but more the stream of thoughts that just come tumbling out of his loud mouth. Settling down a bit, he's good with that. Giving himself as a present to Dave is something he absolutely would do.]
Want me to wrap a bow around myself? [No, stop right there. Don't ruin this.] Like. Only a bow. [Ryuji smirks brightly and, carefully still holding the best gift ever, leans over to gently touch his bicep, driving it a little bit lower because he can't not touch Dave when he's being this goddamn cute.
Somewhere along the way, he wanted to ask if 6 months was a big thing for relationships back in Houston, in the same way that the 100th day is for people back in Japan, but it gets lost in all the other things that are so, so much more important to say or do right now.]
[there's ... really a lot he'd like to say here, to add on to those thoughts about feelings and how Ryuji's helped him be more open about them, or at least try to be more open about them — and it'd be easy to continue this two-person ascent of Mount Mushy, hiking their way to the top so they could yeet a burrito right off the highest peak.]
[there's a lot he'd like to say about how he feels the same, that he's probably grown as a person more in these past six months than he has the first seventeen years of his life, and how Ryuji makes it easier for him to be okay with himself — all his faults, completely accurate or just in his head, and all the unfortunate baggage and messed up past he's been carrying with him. trying to live with.]
[yeah, there's a lot he'd like to say ... but then Ryuji goes and says something else, reaches over and touches his arm, in a way that kicks every rational thought to the curb and lights up every hormonal sensor and neuron in his being.]
Is that like, a legit offer? 'Cause, yeah. Definitely.
[Ryuji should probably hit the launch button before they get too far off track.]
[It's probably not prim and proper to start peeling off his shirt in the middle of a glass sphere launchpad, but that doesn't stop Ryuji from actually thinking that it's the right idea. He's got mush for brains, mushy on the brains, and what if he just... tugged at his clothes a bit.
Is that okay? Is this okay. Is he really going to do this? He doesn't have charm, can't pull off sexy in the way that actually makes him look anything but goofy and endearing even when he tries, but you know what? Fuck it. Sure.
Ceasing from letting his fingers splay downward where they'd eventually have found purchase in Dave's hand, he wraps four fingers at the bottom of his own shirt and pulls upward, revealing his abdomen slightly, along with the little ridges of muscle that are slowly growing into place. And like an idiot that's trying to impress a 10 out of 10 beach goer, he gives a casual upward nod. It has all the cheapness of Nautica Voyage laced with the overbearing scent of Axe deodorant, but Ryuji's all about living that life where he wants to show off when he can. And it's especially stupid? Dave's seen him shirtless before. This isn't even a tease.]
I'm all yours, babe.
[What's next? Sidling up to Dave a la Marilyn Monroe and with a sultry voice singing "Happy Birthday, Mr. Paladin"?
Anyway, if this does nothing for Dave, it's probably for the best, because Ryuji quickly realizes the layers of extra he's just stockpiling onto this entire exchange, and laughs softly, tilting his head, but still stuck in the throes of how much... he absolutely, unabashedly does love this guy who's in front of him. Stripped down out of every other costume they're being forced to wear, he still will always end up being himself around him.
And now that that's over, he's going to launch that fucking burrito sky high. It's long overdue at this point, really. Let's get this baby out there in space so when Faerun finally hits their equivalent of the 1959 moon landing, then they'll get to see the remnants of what two teenagers did to keep a piece of themselves and what they stood for suspended eternally in orbit. And they're going to be so confused.]
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[Sometimes, rarely these days, he still feels himself the incessant urge to ask things like this, even when he has every reason in the world to know the security that exists in their relationship. They're bound by a shared history, magic that left a mark on their wrists, and the affection they have in their hearts for each other, and that's, logically speaking, more than he could ever need. And yet, sometimes, he still feels that urge to ask for the reaffirmation. Signs of a childhood and an upbringing where that sort of certainty just wasn't there; he's never been great at doing anything but wearing his elbow scars out in the open like that.
Still, it's cool. It's all good. He eyes the launcher, the box, and in his mind's eye, traces a path that will inevitably end up junking this thing right into orbit. At least, hopefully. Who knows? Maybe it'll crash down right on top of the Director as she screams out in an agonizing roar of contempt for burritos. Either way, it's still a win.]
I love this tradition. [It's the best one, clearly. When does he get to hit the launch lunch button?]
Huh? Whatcha got there?
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[it's the way he's kind of nervous about handing over this gift, worried that it's going to wind up being a misfire. considering Ryuji just got done spreading a thin layer of sap all over space and presenting it to him like a love song, though, Dave's almost positive the worry's unfounded. but just like the million other ways the two of them are alike, he's had to grow up with that same uncertainty, too. he's better about fishing for reaffirmation than he's ever been, but the urge is still there.]
Yeah, it's a pretty fucking great tradition. Here. [eloquent as ever. Dave produces a small gift from his jacket pocket, and hands it over. it's a skateboard. a skateboard ... with wings?? intricately carved out of wood, impressively detailed so that the wheels even roll, made with a precision that Dave is most definitely not capable of — which means he got someone else to carve out this very goofy idea he had for Ryuji specifically.]
[jury's out on whether it can actually fly, but it's certainly aerodynamic enough.]
Happy anniversary.
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Considering he only ones of one person in this entire moon base that works wood nearly as well as this, and she had offered to make a memorial for their lost friends, Ryuji guesses that hot mom-san was in on this, and with a little push to test the wheels, it moves forward. Goddamn. This is the coolest thing he's ever gotten in his entire life.]
Whoa. This is goddamn awesome. [Hey, look at this, did you know that this thing right here is really amazing? It needs to fly.
Wait, it strikes him. Anniversary? Anniversary. Oh shit.]
Thank you. Shit, I didn't. Uhhh. Happy anniversary! [Can he pull off this deception check with a -10 modifier? Probably not, but losing track of time was something he was good for. By all accounts, he knows he's 18 but has no idea when his birthday passed. At least... Dave's got a handle of.
Of course he has a handle of time? That was, likely, the dumbest thought he's had in a good long while.]
I didn't really have anything prepped to give you in return or anything. Can "I" be your present? [It's the gift that keeps on giving! He smiles sheepishly. Everything suddenly makes sense.]
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[he exhales a breath he didn't realize he was holding once Ryuji voices his approval. the fact that he likes it. and there's an equal measure of time where Dave feels sort of silly, too, getting so anxious over whether he'd like an admittedly silly, yet symbolic, sort of gift like a skateboard with wings. knowing Ryuji, he'd probably be thrilled with half a block of instant ramen and a few shakes of flavoring left in the packet as an anniversary gift — even if Dave thinks he deserves that, and far beyond that.]
At the obvious risk of outsapping you and your moon comment earlier, you kinda already are? [oh boy. they could drown a record-breaking pancake shortstack with all this sap they've been dishing out today. Dave doesn't really care.]
But yeah, that sounds good. Great, even. I mean — I'm not sayin' that as a joke or anything, that's really probably the best thing you could give me right now.
[like how he'd immediately hopped into a glass ball to help Dave when he'd asked, reading between the lines to see that he was asking for help in the first place. like how he'd barged in on Dave when he was sick, and insisted on taking care of him. like how he'd grabbed Dave's hand when he was in the middle of a long and anxious ramble over admitting he liked him, settling him down immediately, six months ago.]
[yeah. he is a pretty great gift.]
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And he'd be really, really freaking stoked for a package of ramen as an anniversary gift. Hard pressed, too, whether or not he'd actually eat it and just leave it as a longstanding thing that he owns. Put it on a mantel, make a mantelpiece out of it and just lovingly stare at it from time to time.]
Nah, outsapping me isn't even possible, dude. [He tilts his head, not intently trying to make a competition out of anything, but inadvertently doing so anyway.] But you've made me this way, too? Like, I wanna just tell you everything all the damn time, and I wasn't really in tune with my feelings before I met you, but. Yeah. You've... you've really opened me up to a lot of things, and if we're bein' real here, which we are, I don't wanna ever go back to not understanding what those feelings are. Like love, and shit.
[He's rambling again, and it's not really on point of what's going on, but more the stream of thoughts that just come tumbling out of his loud mouth. Settling down a bit, he's good with that. Giving himself as a present to Dave is something he absolutely would do.]
Want me to wrap a bow around myself? [No, stop right there. Don't ruin this.] Like. Only a bow. [Ryuji smirks brightly and, carefully still holding the best gift ever, leans over to gently touch his bicep, driving it a little bit lower because he can't not touch Dave when he's being this goddamn cute.
Somewhere along the way, he wanted to ask if 6 months was a big thing for relationships back in Houston, in the same way that the 100th day is for people back in Japan, but it gets lost in all the other things that are so, so much more important to say or do right now.]
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[there's a lot he'd like to say about how he feels the same, that he's probably grown as a person more in these past six months than he has the first seventeen years of his life, and how Ryuji makes it easier for him to be okay with himself — all his faults, completely accurate or just in his head, and all the unfortunate baggage and messed up past he's been carrying with him. trying to live with.]
[yeah, there's a lot he'd like to say ... but then Ryuji goes and says something else, reaches over and touches his arm, in a way that kicks every rational thought to the curb and lights up every hormonal sensor and neuron in his being.]
Is that like, a legit offer? 'Cause, yeah. Definitely.
[Ryuji should probably hit the launch button before they get too far off track.]
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Is that okay? Is this okay. Is he really going to do this? He doesn't have charm, can't pull off sexy in the way that actually makes him look anything but goofy and endearing even when he tries, but you know what? Fuck it. Sure.
Ceasing from letting his fingers splay downward where they'd eventually have found purchase in Dave's hand, he wraps four fingers at the bottom of his own shirt and pulls upward, revealing his abdomen slightly, along with the little ridges of muscle that are slowly growing into place. And like an idiot that's trying to impress a 10 out of 10 beach goer, he gives a casual upward nod. It has all the cheapness of Nautica Voyage laced with the overbearing scent of Axe deodorant, but Ryuji's all about living that life where he wants to show off when he can. And it's especially stupid? Dave's seen him shirtless before. This isn't even a tease.]
I'm all yours, babe.
[What's next? Sidling up to Dave a la Marilyn Monroe and with a sultry voice singing "Happy Birthday, Mr. Paladin"?
Anyway, if this does nothing for Dave, it's probably for the best, because Ryuji quickly realizes the layers of extra he's just stockpiling onto this entire exchange, and laughs softly, tilting his head, but still stuck in the throes of how much... he absolutely, unabashedly does love this guy who's in front of him. Stripped down out of every other costume they're being forced to wear, he still will always end up being himself around him.
And now that that's over, he's going to launch that fucking burrito sky high. It's long overdue at this point, really. Let's get this baby out there in space so when Faerun finally hits their equivalent of the 1959 moon landing, then they'll get to see the remnants of what two teenagers did to keep a piece of themselves and what they stood for suspended eternally in orbit. And they're going to be so confused.]